Ahhhh, fluids!

I am feeling much better after this weekend!  I have been able to drink to my little heart's content and it is wonderful!  I am struggling a bit with not being able to eat "real" food, but the pudding, mashed potatos, and jello and holding me over right now.  I go again on Wednesday, so I am looking forward to getting past that. 
Just having some fluid in my system is making me feel much better! 
This weekend was good.  The Colts loss was very disappointing, but now we can get the team healthy and prepare for next season.  My nephew, Nathan's, birthday party was yesterday and that was a lot of fun! 
I am still getting a lot of comments from people about how different I look.  That's a lot of fun.  My friend Trina gave me tons of clothes and I was trying them on last night.  I was able to get into 22 pants and tops!  I can't beleive it.  The tops are still too tight for me to wear, but it will be soon, I'm sure! 

stricture...

So I went in yesterday morning to have an EGD done.  The doctor said my stricture was so tight that he couldn't get the scope through it.  He opened it up enough for me to be able to drink, but I will have to have 1 or 2 more procedures done to be able to get food down.  I am back to liquids.  I also got some fluids, so I feel a bit better.  I am glad to know that there was something actually going on and I wasn't just going crazy, but I am a bit discouraged to feel like I am starting at phase one again.  It's a trip what this does to you pshycologically.  I had stopped almost all of my cravings and head hunger thinking that I could eat a lot of different things.  Knowing that I am back at liquid, all of those cravings came roaring back today.  I know it will be better to do this and get it taken care of in the long run. 
I am down another couple of pounds and am quickly approaching the 75 lb mark!  That's fun!  I go back Wednesday for the next EGD and I am hoping they can open me up enough for some food this time!

Rough day.

I don't like posts like this at all.  Booo.  I am having a rough day.  I finally called the nurse and asked what I should do.  I am sure I am dehydrated.  I know I am not getting enough of anything.  It takes me an hour to eat 2 ounces and even then it comes up half the time.  I am pretty weak today.  She's going to call the doctor and guessed they will want to go in and stretch my pouch as soon as possible.  I am waiting to hear back.  It's a quick proceedure, but will require sedation.  I will get fluids, too.  I am 7 weeks out and still not able to get down 6 ounces of food a day.  I am at about 40 ounces of fluid most days, but only about 20-30 grams of protein.  I am not all that discouraged.  I knew it would be rough going in.  I just need it to get better soon.  I feel pretty weak and I know it's because I haven't gotten enough protein for so long now.  I look at others that went later than me and see them eating well and I know there must be something going on with me.  I am nervous about being "stretched out" because I don't want my pouch to be too big and my weight loss to slow, but my weight loss is going to stall anyway if I don't feed my body more and I can face some much bigger complications in the long run.  So...  I am just waiting to hear back to see what doc wants to do.  Wish me luck!  :-)

I love my husband!

For all of you that know Nick, you already know that he's amazing.  Really amazing.  In just about everyway possible.  I got home from work yesterday and walked into our house.  Nick had done laundry, cleaned the kitchen, put away a bunch of stuff, fixed a towel hanger in our bathroom, made the bed, and lit yummy smelling candles!  It was so nice to be able to come in and not see a 1000 things that I needed to do.  He is so good! 
I didn't do very well eating yesterday.  I only ate one time.  The good news was that is stayed down.  Today is going ok.  I had some milk this morning.  I had some cantelope for breakfast.  I've had a little water.  I am just tired of feeling queasy after everything I eat.  :-(  I guess if it doesn't improve in the next few days, I may have to call the Dr back afterall.  :-(  I am mainly worried about being dehydrated.  I don't want to have to go get IV fluids.  :-(  I am sure it will be fine.  I know this is all part of it.  I am still in great spirits, though.  I still have energy, so I'm doing good.  :-)

6 week follow up...

Yesterday was my 6 week follow up with Dr. Clark.  I am officically down 41 pounds from their recorded start weight!  Dr Clark was happy with my incisions, but is concerned that I am having such a hard time keeping food down.  I'm concerned, too!  He said to watch it for another week and I may need to do a swallow study to see what's happening.  Fingers crossed that it will work itself out.
Other than that, work is well.  It's been fun to see everyone and catch up.  It feels like I didn't really miss a beat!  I have been getting lots of, "Wow, you look great"s and, "Your face looks so different"!  It's fun!  :-) 
Not much new right now.  I had some potato soup from Applebees for lunch today and it settled well.  I have done ok with water today, too, so it's good!  :-)

Adventures and football...

I love football season!  I am a big Colts fan and this season has been nothing short of nail-biting.  Colts fans are normally treated to some really fun games, but also almost always guaranteed a shot in the playoffs.  At least in the Peyton Manning era.  Not so much this season.  Today is a huge division game that will make or break our playoff hopes.  I am sure it will be an intense game! 
Other than that, we are just going to be running some errands today.  We are going to Sam's Club, Lowes and Wal-Mart.  Pretty low key day.
On another note, Nick and I do our "official" weigh in on Sundays and I am at 281 (69 total lbs down) and Nick is 299.8!  Officically in twoterville!  We also did measurements last night and I am down 19 inches!!  4 in my bust and 5 in my waist!  I also bought a size 24 jeans from Penneys yesterday!  That's down from a 30!  YAY!!

Happy New Year!!

Wow!  New Year's Day!  What an exciting day it is!  You get to reflect on the previous year and start a new page all at the same time!
I am one  of the silly ones that always makes a resolution and totally forgets what it was by about Jan 15, but I am making another one this year.  2010 I spent getting MYSELF in order, so 2011 I am going to try to get my HOME in order.
I am always so impressed when I go to other people's houses.  I have been in really beautiful, immaculate houses where I don't want to touch anything and I have been in some wonderful, lived-in, comfortable welcoming houses.  We have lived in our house for 6 years and it is still very "unfinished".  It has also become more cluttered that I care for.  So this year I am going to try to make my house more my home. 
I hope you are all happy with where your lives are as we start another year.  I hope you can reflect on all the joys and the journey life took you on through 2010 and I hope your road ahead into 2011 looks promising and bright!
Love to you all!!